.life.

have you ever wondered how you should run your life? plan a few years ahead or take a step at a time? a brand new year and a totally refreshing experience. tomorrow is the first day of school for all students. hello!!! i am no longer a student because i have to pay adult transport fare. =( it's damn expensive!!! maybe i should start to take up walking as a new sports. haha.. anyway, i was talking to my dad the other day about my life for the next few months, and even more talkings about life with a few s14 friends today. what am i living for?

am i willing to make an impact in someone's life? i dont really have a big heart. maybe it is because i am more of a practical person than an emotional one which is the direct opposite of the sterotyped characteristic of a female. i am not a very sensitive person so i may have hurt my friends unintentionally sometimes. i am not a good listener especially when i am in the foul mood. i will either slam my door at you or nod my head repeatedly to pretend that i am listening. that's why my friends do not run to me most of the times when they need a shoulder to cry on. i am not that type of person who will whine and cry with them and comfort them after that. i think i am more of the type who make things happen, to seek solutions and make the situation better because i believe that whining and crying do not help to improve anything. remember that no matter what happens, life goes on. so might as well, use the time to solve the problem. time does not stop when you are in deep shit. with all the above mentioned characters, how am i supposed to leave footprints in others' hearts?

everyone wants to be loved. me too!! love from friends, family and the other half. i am glad that i have tons of wonderful friends. my family ties are getting stronger after i have graduated. oh my!!!! look at how my school had destroyed my family bond. i am happy that i am finally out of it. how about my other half? hmm... that can wait. i have more important things that i need to handle. i am not ready yet. i still want to enjoy my single life. the thrills of being single are addictive. i cant get it out of my mind, heart and soul. i am afraid of committments. i am not a party girl but i dont like the feeling of being tied down and restricted. i want to have freedom! i am afraid of getting involved in it. someone told me this before, girlfriends last longer than boyfriends. it's so true. i am not trying to be a wet blanket. if you have found your special someone, CONGRATES! you have my blessings. just a piece of advice, treasure every moments because they are special and unique. =)

here's a top 10 list of stuff and things i want to accomplish before i reach 30. =)

1. obtain my driving license and own a decent car
2. start working with a decent position(DUH!)
3. i can finally play the guitar
4. settle down and have my first child
5. obtain a fantastic degree (life is not all about studies but i need that paper to survive. realistic ya?)
6. earn big bucks that are able to support my retail therapies
7. still in contact with my beloved friends
8. family ties are going strong
9. have sufficient savings to back pack around Europe before my first child
10. to be mentally stronger

"life is about knowing yourself"